{"id":46,"date":"2021-08-10T22:44:49","date_gmt":"2021-08-10T22:44:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/?p=46"},"modified":"2021-08-10T22:44:49","modified_gmt":"2021-08-10T22:44:49","slug":"in-holden-caulfields-mind","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/?p=46","title":{"rendered":"In Holden Caulfield&#8217;s Mind"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-preformatted\">\r\n\r\nHello Diary,\r\n\r\nI normally never open you up because I\u2019ve always thought it was such a dumb and phoney thing to do. Today, I really feel like sharing my thoughts with someone, yet I feel like talking to no one at all and spend some time reflecting on this thing we call life.\r\n\r\nNow that I think about it, I grew up as such an eccentric kid. Why did I always think everyone was so fake and phoney. When I sit and think about it now, I lied about practically everything to everyone, I believed absolutely nobody except Phoebe. I guess it was all a part of going through puberty and teenage. I wish I trusted people a little more, made some more memories and bonds. It all feels a little strange now, I\u2019m 21 now, I\u2019m legally an adult. \r\n\r\nWhen I think of myself and the person I was five years ago from today, I don\u2019t know what to say. All I cared about was Jane and Sally and this girl and that girl. I wanted to explore the world so badly, that somewhere I lost the essence of my childhood. Now that I\u2019m an adult, the world is my oyster, I can do whatever I want, go wherever I want. I should\u2019ve let my innocence stay intact, enjoyed the purity of childhood for a little longer. I want to set some goals for myself now. I want to trust people, bond with them and make memories. I want to reconnect with my family and friends and spend some quality time with them. I want to trust people, have faith and them and most importantly, I want to live in the moment. I want to take life one step at a time, enjoy the little things. In this next phase of my life, I want to be myself, I want to be happy.\r\n\r\nI will talk to you soon. Until then,\r\n\r\nHolden<\/pre>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hello Diary, I normally never open you up because I\u2019ve always thought it was such a dumb and phoney thing to do. Today, I really feel like sharing my thoughts with someone, yet I feel like talking to no one at all and spend some time reflecting on this thing we call life. Now that [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47,"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46\/revisions\/47"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/prarthnabatra.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}